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Feb. 25th, 2005 10:10 amRENT the movie CASTING CALL: DRAG QUEENS, 18 + yrs, ALL ETHNICITIES 2/24/05 – please post and circulate freely ( the details )
Feb. 25th, 2005
zooma zoom zoom
Feb. 25th, 2005 10:11 amwow - did i realize how stuck i felt? how just saying goodbye, or maybe not goodbye for always but just a little goodbye for now would do a complete 180 on how i feel in my own skin? last night the friend said that i had never looked so happy. yup. that covers it.
oh i am still a garbled mess of hope and fear and wonder and blech. but for now the fresh air part of me is winning. the shiny that comes through easily with a couple shots of whiskey or the perfect dance song and a not crowded dance floor - those are the moments when i need sunscreen from myself i feel so happy. today is going to be a long day - and i am sure that i will get tired and cranky somewhere along the line. but at least i feel in control. and that can really make all the difference.
making active and not passive choices is the only way to truly be alive.
oh i am still a garbled mess of hope and fear and wonder and blech. but for now the fresh air part of me is winning. the shiny that comes through easily with a couple shots of whiskey or the perfect dance song and a not crowded dance floor - those are the moments when i need sunscreen from myself i feel so happy. today is going to be a long day - and i am sure that i will get tired and cranky somewhere along the line. but at least i feel in control. and that can really make all the difference.
making active and not passive choices is the only way to truly be alive.
wanted to share
Feb. 25th, 2005 10:23 amjust read gordonzola's "what i have done" meme and it reminded me
in high school we had this book for every senior class - all of your classmates voted, it was that whole who's going to succeed, who is going to have 10 kids kind of deal
my highlights were:
Most likely to become a communist
most likely to start a commune in south america
damn there were some other good ones...
i may have to dig it up and post the funnest parts here
i do recall that one friend got me listed with the nickname Lady Elektra based on an S&M/dominatrix shirt we saw at the Cats Meow in Ann Arbor
jeez
in high school we had this book for every senior class - all of your classmates voted, it was that whole who's going to succeed, who is going to have 10 kids kind of deal
my highlights were:
Most likely to become a communist
most likely to start a commune in south america
damn there were some other good ones...
i may have to dig it up and post the funnest parts here
i do recall that one friend got me listed with the nickname Lady Elektra based on an S&M/dominatrix shirt we saw at the Cats Meow in Ann Arbor
jeez
remember - hearts are fragile things
Feb. 25th, 2005 02:26 pmthis just keeps coming up for me
in romantic, friend or even love for myself - you have to tread gently and carefully when you are in heart territory
i had a mouth accident last night in a moment of confusion and frustration and mixed some things up. hurt feelings abound. dammit. little heart fractures.
brain is firing synapses more quickly than usual. lots of thoughts and ideas. sushi for dinner is a possibility with an old friend. so many old friends lately.
in romantic, friend or even love for myself - you have to tread gently and carefully when you are in heart territory
i had a mouth accident last night in a moment of confusion and frustration and mixed some things up. hurt feelings abound. dammit. little heart fractures.
brain is firing synapses more quickly than usual. lots of thoughts and ideas. sushi for dinner is a possibility with an old friend. so many old friends lately.
existential attraction ethics
Feb. 25th, 2005 02:32 pmwhat are the ethics around wanting someone to find you hot, even if you don't want to fuck / date them...
to the extent of even dressing up for them, etc.
based on a recent conversation - hoping to get the LJ chime in
is it just an ego trip? need for validation? a mindfuck? being manipulative / tease?
thoughts please.
to the extent of even dressing up for them, etc.
based on a recent conversation - hoping to get the LJ chime in
is it just an ego trip? need for validation? a mindfuck? being manipulative / tease?
thoughts please.