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Feb. 25th, 2005 10:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
emchywow - did i realize how stuck i felt? how just saying goodbye, or maybe not goodbye for always but just a little goodbye for now would do a complete 180 on how i feel in my own skin? last night the friend said that i had never looked so happy. yup. that covers it.
oh i am still a garbled mess of hope and fear and wonder and blech. but for now the fresh air part of me is winning. the shiny that comes through easily with a couple shots of whiskey or the perfect dance song and a not crowded dance floor - those are the moments when i need sunscreen from myself i feel so happy. today is going to be a long day - and i am sure that i will get tired and cranky somewhere along the line. but at least i feel in control. and that can really make all the difference.
making active and not passive choices is the only way to truly be alive.
oh i am still a garbled mess of hope and fear and wonder and blech. but for now the fresh air part of me is winning. the shiny that comes through easily with a couple shots of whiskey or the perfect dance song and a not crowded dance floor - those are the moments when i need sunscreen from myself i feel so happy. today is going to be a long day - and i am sure that i will get tired and cranky somewhere along the line. but at least i feel in control. and that can really make all the difference.
making active and not passive choices is the only way to truly be alive.
