the big muddy

fuzzy foggy morning in my head and the sun in th epark and the view out clear to the ocean didn't really clear things up at all. i need a some metaphorical windex to work this shit out. the path is there and i am walking down it and i am feeling better and i am feeling ok but whew today the brain is just muddy.

what i want today: endless chatting/emailing/socializing and a good walk in the sun

just when i needed it

a message from the world - a call from a friend - to remind me that my connections to people are not imaginary and that these relationships are real...

right. i forget.

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i get what i want and it is never enough
how frustrating