panic attack slowly subsiding

[emchy]

i just feel so sad
that some fucking loser would think that hitting or being violent toawrds a dog would be a good thing- -but realistically - people do fucked up shit to people, cats, bunnies and I am always shocked at the hate that people put there towards innocent creatures. People can suck and I get the anger towards them, but children and animals - I swear - it always makes me lose more faith in humanity

But I cannot just walk around freaked out constantly
that will not work
it's not good for me, and that asshole cannot take away that i mostly like my life
so stash away, save the money, and move honey move just as soon as it is realistic

so that's it
i must find a way to have peace - to not worry and freak out and i am vacillating and I am still worried but at least i know that we have so far done the right things, we have been documenting, we have sought advice, personal, legal and direct from the coppers.

why is it always something?

and how to move past the paranoia and learn to live here without being angry all the time

Comments

[gordonzola.livejournal.com]

sounds hard, Cindy. I hope this gets better soon.

[cindymonkey.livejournal.com]

thanks honey
me too

me too

[fightingwords.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry this is happening. please, yes, make sure you document everything and notify the police. i'll let you know if i hear of any place opening up.

thanks

[cindymonkey.livejournal.com]

thank you - it just feels really overwhelming - and I am not getting a damn thing done at work with all of this

and the landlady just so doesn't get it

I think soon she will start seeing us as the problem children since we aren't just letting it go

which is even more frustrating