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[emchy]

reality hit home tonight
culminating in the beginning of a mourning process that is six years late
i am angry
super fucking pissed off
but moving forward into knowing
that i can learn how to integrate all the parts of myself
into the me that I walk around with daily

i feel sad and still hopeful
i feel scared
super fucking scared
of where this could take me
but living in fear has never done me any good

we all react differently to our abuse and trauma
i still mostly don't admit mine
but its there
soon i might even be ready to tell people about it
but to even admit
that it lurks
is a first step

walk with me on the baby steps people
at the end of the path
are riches
they told me
there are riches