the benefit was a smashing success. money was raised. art was performed. chills, tears and laughs were more than had. but more than all of that - on a personal note. seeing people. reconnecting. and honestly - feeling my family of queer radical artists,activists and just MY fucking people being around - for me it was revolutionary. i've been feeling down and disconnected and sick and stressed out and a whole lotta unpleasantness for a long time now. its why i left the queer open mic. its why i find myself not writing as much. its why i am depressed and anti social a lot. like whine whine emo right - but i've been having a crisis of one kind or another for a while now and self care shcmelf care it aint seeming to be working. always so tired. so sad. so lethargic. and tonight. tonight i felt like i was getting sick. i was hella tired and stressed out and my rsi was cranky. but all of that didn't matter when i parked the car and saw steven pull in behind me. from that minute forward i felt like i was kinda home in this way that was all about people and community. even the people i didn't know were there with such good intention and goodness in their hearts that it was just - it was what friends and community are supposed to be. and it was amazing.i felt really honored to be a part of it. the personal messages to fran said into the camera. the cheers for the new uncle bear daddy in the house. the bruce springsteen shout outs. the casual way carol emceed like we were all at her dinner party. its this stuff that makes sf home for me. i may be thinkgin abut new orleans a lot these days. but you people. i fall in love with you all over again whenever i see you.
big big love.
now here are some pictures.
and now i go crashy.
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