flipping off myself

i just went from happy, to shocked, to devasted, to betrayed, to crushed, to so incredibly sad, to maybe i need to leave work so i can go home and sob again because people suck so badly, to paused, to breathing deeply, to trying again, to embarrassed, to relieved, to dumb assed but happy again, albeit with a grain of salt.

the lessons?
1. if you are going to call an old friend that there are potential emotional grenades, make sure to dial the number correctly

2. if you call and the number is disconnected, and the recording says check the number, really, check the number before you decide that someone gave you a fake number

3. maybe don't make said emotionally expensive call from your CUBE where people will see you if you freak out

(no subject)

its really cold
and i should be working on something or other
since the radio show was all kaput and shit
but it is so cold
and i have the apt to myself
and i got soaked to the skin
and had mochas with the pal - wow it had been too long, only a week and a half but it felt like forever!
and it is so cold
cold cold cold

and i wanna be chatty
but did i mention it was cold?

(fyi for those on the east coast and in colder climates, we're not built for below 50 here, so it is prolly in the low 40's and rainy, but my house has neither heat not insulation, so i am not just being whiny, i promise, it's about 50 degrees or less in my house)