a little dreamier

victoria williams singing, reminding me of a radio show i used to host, cold winter pushed back a little by the warm sun of enw orleans and driving through tennessee, southern illinois. blue sky in a small sliver out my window, clouds over bernal hill to the other side.

today, instead of running to berkeley on an errand i can't afford i give myself a date. i will drive to the park and go for a walk. as slow or as fast as i want. i have scrungy clothes, so i can even get dirty, and come back to the tidy office. reinsert the cog in the machine. alive.

i want to walk in the rain and feel alive.

fresh grass

this makes me so happy
for the new year
i am buying laundry that smells like summer

http://www.kiarie.co.uk/cgi-bin/products.cgi?productid=KGH009

wheee

i just ran out for lunch
to bernal hill - where i saw a hint of blue sky
there were beach converse in my trunk
so i switched out rain wear platforms for the old canvas sneakers
and in short skirt, tights and nice sweater i ran all the hell over the park
i said hi to dogs
i smiled at everyone
i smelled the grass
the wind gave me big swishy hugs
and the sun shone on me, until i got back in the car and drove to the office
45 minutes of running and mud and grass
small amounts of coughing and wheezing - made it even better to deep breathe the fresh air
i wanna go back
but even for a moment

it was wonderful