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May. 31st, 2005 10:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
emchyi feel like a weirdo
i am so unhappy at jobs that aren't really all that unhappy making or bad
is it that office work just isn't for me
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
if asked my ideal day job, i feel like a deer in the headlights
i was watching the dvd of queer as folk, and there a character who is just back in the world after rehab, his drug counselor asks him what he would love to do, and BAM he auditions and gets a job doing it
you know that film device where someone is all 'no you'll laugh' then says 'well i always have wanted to ...' and suddenly that is their fate.
i have either too many of the 'i've always wanted to' or not enough and so i can't seem to focus in on anything except that what i have now isn't it.
that i am sure of
you know, i am a naturally happy person. i like to smile and laugh and play. sure i get the shadowy and maudlin moments but i actually enjoy some element of that too. and i am really really tired of being so tired and unhappy.
nightmares about work now four nights in a row. waking up more stressy and sad then i went to bed.
ugh. if i could just take a test and it would tell me what to do i would be so there.
i am so unhappy at jobs that aren't really all that unhappy making or bad
is it that office work just isn't for me
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
if asked my ideal day job, i feel like a deer in the headlights
i was watching the dvd of queer as folk, and there a character who is just back in the world after rehab, his drug counselor asks him what he would love to do, and BAM he auditions and gets a job doing it
you know that film device where someone is all 'no you'll laugh' then says 'well i always have wanted to ...' and suddenly that is their fate.
i have either too many of the 'i've always wanted to' or not enough and so i can't seem to focus in on anything except that what i have now isn't it.
that i am sure of
you know, i am a naturally happy person. i like to smile and laugh and play. sure i get the shadowy and maudlin moments but i actually enjoy some element of that too. and i am really really tired of being so tired and unhappy.
nightmares about work now four nights in a row. waking up more stressy and sad then i went to bed.
ugh. if i could just take a test and it would tell me what to do i would be so there.
