caffeine and sugar help... a lot

[emchy]

so my mood is improved - though i am still not really in my own head
BUT
a co-worker bought me a chocolate shake from mitchells
and i forgot that i had caffeinated gum - and ate too much of it
buzzz buzzz buzzz
so now i feel pretty hyper, which is good for putting off the bad feelings

in ten minutes i go talk to the radio guy about all of my car accidents
though i know i am forgetting some... i can't find that original LJ entry about them, where i think we got up to 15 that i had had - i can only remember 13 and that includes the car blowing up - though i am not sure that it counts as an accident since the car wasn't moving at the time... details details

my plans tonight got cancelled - never have i been so happy
other plans immediately replaced them - but the new plans involve me at least being in my own home

i may even be rude and go to bed at 10 even if the guests are still over

it's not like it's all better - but i am trying to let go a little of needing everything to feel either perfect or desolate