nice and heartbreaking
Aug. 1st, 2007 08:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
emchyso i was obsessing about the haircut enough that i emailed the bassist from the bellmer dolls and was all - listen i know it's weird - but do you have pictures of your hair? he was so nice. he sent over his haircut inspiration picture right away AND directed me to flickr to find more. nice. for no reason - so nice. those are always the ones that get me.
then today at lunch final_girl and I traded precious things. thoughts. treats. hugs. such a gift.
at home more precious was traded. more thoughts. hugs. dreams. futures.
i got some super sad news too. sigh. but i will suck it up.
i need a new lease on me. i like me, but it's like i need a little makeover. part of this is prolly clothes not fitting right and clearing out for summer and fall. the 33 bday approaches and i want changes.
i also want new ink. the antlers ink. a haircut. i think i am dyeing my hair dark again soon. and just in general - i want some new aesthetics that have been brewing for a while but not $$ feasible. i have let my curviness dictate how i can't dress and i don't want to do that anymore.
i don't want to spend the 8/14 paycheck before it's spent. but in my dreams... whooo boy do i have plans.
i am channeling my grandfather. i want to carry that tradition. dammit. it will be mine.
then today at lunch final_girl and I traded precious things. thoughts. treats. hugs. such a gift.
at home more precious was traded. more thoughts. hugs. dreams. futures.
i got some super sad news too. sigh. but i will suck it up.
i need a new lease on me. i like me, but it's like i need a little makeover. part of this is prolly clothes not fitting right and clearing out for summer and fall. the 33 bday approaches and i want changes.
i also want new ink. the antlers ink. a haircut. i think i am dyeing my hair dark again soon. and just in general - i want some new aesthetics that have been brewing for a while but not $$ feasible. i have let my curviness dictate how i can't dress and i don't want to do that anymore.
i don't want to spend the 8/14 paycheck before it's spent. but in my dreams... whooo boy do i have plans.
i am channeling my grandfather. i want to carry that tradition. dammit. it will be mine.
