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emchywoke up this morning feeling scared. scared of myself. of where i am and where i am not. where i want to be and if i have the strength and courage to get there. to be open hearted and brave and love myself. to face my friends with that same open heart and feelings are just love them in person no strings attached like i love them in my heart when they're not right in front of me. scared of where i am and am not going as an artist. scared that i might not be able to do it. scared that i can see the road to my dreams and that i won't be strong enough to make it to the end. scared that i'll just be invisible forever. scared that i will turn away from the adventures i want. scared that i just can't do it anymore. just afraid that i somewhere along the line turned down the wrong road and i am on the failure path.
and what i hope is. those fears are there because it's what i am facing. THOSE are the safety net that i am turning away from and so my insecurities and patterns are turning up the volume because they don't want me walking away and towards good and powerful things. they don't want to be left behind. so they're getting louder. the louder they are - the more resolute i am to leave them behind.
i want a lot of things.
some of them are in progress.
some of them need a plan.
time to move forward as much as possible.
and what i hope is. those fears are there because it's what i am facing. THOSE are the safety net that i am turning away from and so my insecurities and patterns are turning up the volume because they don't want me walking away and towards good and powerful things. they don't want to be left behind. so they're getting louder. the louder they are - the more resolute i am to leave them behind.
i want a lot of things.
some of them are in progress.
some of them need a plan.
time to move forward as much as possible.
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Date: 2007-07-08 07:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-07-08 07:17 pm (UTC)how does this inspire you? please tell me more. and - what are you doing today?
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Date: 2007-07-08 07:27 pm (UTC)"and what i hope is. those fears are there because it's what i am facing. THOSE are the safety net that i am turning away from and so my insecurities and patterns are turning up the volume because they don't want me walking away and towards good and powerful things. they don't want to be left behind. so they're getting louder. the louder they are - the more resolute i am to leave them behind."
and you inspire me because you're a fabulous brilliant artist, and there is no doubt in my mind that you are walking toward good and powerful things.
today i'm [data embargo].
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Date: 2007-07-08 07:30 pm (UTC)cause i'll take you for some if you want
i guarantee take away the scared feelings
correction
Date: 2007-07-08 07:31 pm (UTC)is what my fingers were supposed to type
Re: correction
Date: 2007-07-08 07:32 pm (UTC)i'm spelling guarantee wrong
but in my defense i haven't eaten breakfast yet
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Date: 2007-07-08 07:46 pm (UTC)it's been WAYYYYYYY to long my fellow monkey