yoga morning

[emchy]

as in a tape in the living room with kitty all getting in my business while i downward dog
let's hope it helps clear my mind
already got me to some realizations

i am writing a fair bit these days
(the start of something....)

"your whiskey ran like
the river that i paid for
this friendship
of violence and cigarettes
when you wanted to hit me
i knew that you loved me
because you didn't
but you bothered
to write it down"

but if someone falls in love with a tree and rolls in the dirt alone in the forest - who cares?
i have to figure out what is stopping me from sending work out
something is
something something

i have recommendations
i have a roadmap in my head
i can help other people do their shit
i cannot seem to take step two
and i don't want to be one of those people
who everyone says is smart and has promise
and never fulfills it
(i am afraid that i already am)

wow - yoga gets me kind of open about sacred stuff in the morning
hmmm, i am sure when i get to work the perky mask will return

in the interests of bravery - public post (eeep)