emchy

i feel almost like i have to post one of thoe +/- posts about how the weekend... how the day.. how the brain the heart the mood the everything is. but i resist. because instead i want to say. for the shoulders, arms and laps i have leaned on and cuddled into for the past year, you have helped me more than you know. you have saved me from many things, thoughts and demons but most notably from myself. i am crawling out from under the rock. i am making myself heard to my own ears. i have woken up instead of shutting off and i am ready to kick some motherfucking ass right about now. so here it comes around again. i am rocking the shit out. i am stomping down the street with a smile and a virtual cigarette clamped between my teeth and i am going to give you flowers and dead leaves and dirt until the cows come home. i am going to drive on roads that split the fields with wheat so high it's like driving in a shining flowing tunnel of fall sunshine. i am going to remember who i am, who i was and who i am tomorrow. it's a process. but right now i am steppin steppin steppin like pj harvey is rockin out my own personal brain and we are having a DAMN good time.