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strange combination of hyper, nervous, happy and dissatisfied.
my skin is grey with this flourescent light tan
want something realer
all the time
not just on the weekends
where i get to taste air on my teeth
like a soldier on leave
finding lips to kiss
to remind him of home

french films

I just watched the most charming french film about two people with some chemistry on a subway train. if you wanna see http://www.atomfilms.com/af/content/who_missed_who

it's 8mins long.

six weird things about me meme

this time around the meme is borrowed from justin42

1. i almost died as an infant and there is only one baby picture because they had to stick me in an incubator for 6 weeks and i was too orange colored to be photogenic

2. i was 80% deaf until i was about 8 years old, hence my skill at being 'in my own world'

3. i was married. to a man. for about 2 years. this doesn't seem to weird to me, but people tend to react like it is.

4. i don't like to fight, but i when i was a kid i broke my best friends nose twice. once because she dared me to and once because her brother said that if we didn't fight i would have to go home and we couldn't play anymore.

5. i sometimes trust people immediately. way too much.

6. and i have a cat that likes to eat cigarettes, smoke pot, and drink beer and whiskey - though that is more about the cat than me...

lookit me - i'm friendly

today was such a comedy of errors to get home. first - i head away from the job and to the castro. yay it's drink night. woo hoo whiskey with the old new friend. we'll call her whiskeypal. anyway - on the muni train, halfway there, i think... are we meeting next week? a flurry of phone calls and appt book checking and walking around the castro confused finally inform me that yes - i am not only not late, i am entire week early. heh. ok. so... looks like i am heading home after all. so i walk the hill back from the castro just for kicks and pick up the 7 for the last few blocks. i think i see an ex-flameliner on the bus and go over to say hi. hi hi hi. i am super friendly. i am all - the sun is out, the day is gorgeous, la la la. a minute later she is all, my name is sasha. oh. this isn't the person i know. in fact, i realize i am in the middle of a serious sort of pick up flirt because i totally thought i knew this person. oops. it's ok. she's nice. and then behind her, my friend R who i never see enough. so it was hilarious. he was all - we are everywhere. heh. homos everywhere. sasha left the bus, i stayed on for a while to catch up with R of the double life and it was all good.

i still think it's funny that i indadvertenly was picking up on this butch thing on the bus. and i was so much goofier than i ever would be in a pickup. hilarious. the mister thought it was pretty funny too. when i told her about it later. sheesh.