Dec. 21st, 2005

should advertisers bow to conservative xtian forces like the american family association? this ad agency is doing a poll. if you wanna weigh in on it go here: http://www.adage.com/poll.cms

ever have one of those days that regardless of your intentions you are consistently misunderstood? well let's say it's my new theme song. which in conjunction with pms, no bfast and only one cuppa coffee plus the gloomy weather, which i usually love but today is dragging me under, it's making it a not so great solstice.

i need to turn the beat around though. find joys and happys in the moments that i walk in today. honor myself and the people i love. i suppose part of that is returning some friggin phone calls once work is done today. oh boy.

started new medicine last night. am now minutely observing all of my mood fluctuations and attitudes for potential good and bad reactions. being slightly ocd about it.

what i want the most right now: a tom waits record, a fireplace, my own copy of prime and about 6 hours just to myself.

sometimes its just a matter of looking around, taking a breath, and knowing that you're doing the best that you can. work is swampy. years and years of bitching about being bored at work trained me for the research that i now am innundated with and could literally spend 20 hours a day doing and still not have done enough. and that is ok. i have a new porject tomorrow that i am adding onto the current projects and i am excited about it.

also, tomorrow is the super fun anti-xmas pro-corny punk rock radio show. and i get to donate two toys for tots, which makes three this year, and somehow that feels really great.

i have no idea how the family xmas last saturday went. sad that mom hasn't called, but i have been too swampy to call her either, so chalk it up to virgo holiday insanity.

commercialism and the need to buy buy buy sent me both to coffeemessiah.com and devoutdolls.com today. i heart squishy cute things.

and with that, i wrap up my uber grumpy day and go offline until tomorrow.

it's the solstice, tonight i honor myself and appreciate what i have and do some magick...