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still sick - but on a different topic

i am noticing today, this amazing thing is happening in my life
slowly but surely, my daily conversations with my friends are more about art
how we make it, how we love it, what art we love, etc
from punk rock to poetry to movies, art and the creation of it is becoming more focused in my life
and more focused in a personal - yes me, i can create it sort of way, not so much as consumer, but as co-creator conspirator, peer

and that there is now a good army of loved ones who are there to help build me up when i start to fall down
who have faith in me

i love you for that.
it is taking some getting used to, i feel in some ways like before 2004 i was in a self imposed vaccuum, and now finally i am out in the world, meeting and greeting and all of the people i have looked for are now turning around and saying howdy. that is wonderful.

today two fairly new friends, went above and beyond the call of duty to bring much needed supplies to the house of plague. mslashes and L thank you.

it is my fault that one of the videos L rented for me is absolute crap, but it is fun watching starlets hit awkward adolescence on film (lindsey lohan anyone?) in case you're wondering - cponfessions of a teenage drama queen is really as predicatable as it seems like it should be.

anyway - just feeling like things are on the right track, as long as i can keep my head about me for the day job to keep that art moving, it's all good. and once i am say at 80% health, it's right back to all those damn readings and plans that i was making before this death flu hit me

(although i do expect to at least try going back to work tomorrow)