back in town

i am depressed
back in town from portland
and everything feels so grey
it's like i am completely sleepwalking
totally disconnected from myself
i know what some of it is about - but that isn't helping
it's like me, the person inside - is trying to see through this fog, and the more i try to break through it, it just keeps getting thicker
the eyes of my soul are sad and cloudy
how do i find the edge, to pull the curtain back and let the joy back in
it feels like it is gone forever
that is my melodrama
but for the moment - it is me