heat, sex and work

[emchy]

my bones feel twitchy tonight. a big hurdle was jumped over nice and clean it appears and so we're on the other side of the scary. there are more scaries to jump over in the coming weeks, but the big one is now in the official past. interesting how as that happens the heat is on in the bay. i love heat. one of the reasons i love new orleans. even when the heat is stifling and uncomfortable and i can't even breathe in it - i like it. i like my bones feeling looser and waring less clothes and honestly i get less worked up. i start refusing on some core level to get stressed out. sure i get mad and cranky and even a little sad like i feel right now. but that arching anxiety that just eats at me... the warmer it is the less i hold onto it. so right now i am not comfortable at all. but i love the heat. a cold shower before bed yes. going out tomorrow to find food that is light and watery and helps me hydrate, yes.

tomorrow i am seriously considering  taking me and the wife to bolinas or berryessa and grilling on the water while i play my accordion and feel sand under my feets. that would be ideal. i think she has school stuff so heck i may just go solo. roadtrip by myself and rock out the music. not sure. there are some ithings that work may need me for. but i also have my cellphone on me to be on call and my computer at home and am planning to work all weekend so it's not like they would be out on the actual workload. i can be responsible and take care of myself right?

i need a day. for reals. to bask in this few days of summer. one of my biggest sads about living in sf is the summers i don't have anymore. the way heat and humidity make you pray and want for the snow and the rains. the way thunderstorms kick all of the electricity and charges through the air. for a little while we have this heat. i don't want to hide from it in an air conditioned office. i want to lie around and soak it up like that first weekend with a new lover where you're sore and you're tired and you're sloppy messy and full of sex. yet you still don't stop. you still don't leave. you run that train for as long as you can and when you come up for air that first weekend lust drunk is gone. sure you can keep on fucking and it can be grand but you only get that first messy weekend once. ah shit it's lush and gorgeous and holds on in the muscle memory. likewise. the first real heat of summer comes only once a year. and living in sf - it's like once every few years. so i am raising my glass to fucking this weather all weekend until the fog rolls in. seriously.

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[sult.livejournal.com]

i don't know exactly where, but france is going to be on a job in berryessa tomorrow, probably 9am - sunset.

so if you see a a huge trailer and photo crew if you go up there, that'll be her.

[red-eyed-soul.livejournal.com]

oh my goodness, yes! i feel that same way about weather - specifically summerheat, & also rainstorms - like you just want to fuck it & never stop.

[haitianheromg.livejournal.com]

go for it!

[borggrrl.livejournal.com]

One of the reasons I love going to Vegas is the ability to walk around at midnight in just a tee shirt and be warm enough. Hell, last June I walked around outdoors all night long in a slip dress and sandals. I haven't done that in what feels like forever. (I also enjoy the feeling of going from heat to a/c and back again. Especially leaving the a/c, I love the way my skin tingles as the outside air warms it back up.)

When sagahar and I left Vegas this last time, on Monday, a storm was rolling in. The sky was grey and the breeze was kicking up, but it was still warm. I wanted to stay and play in the storm so badly it hurt.

If you ever make it back to Vegas go to the wildlife habitat at the Flamingo. It's full of little waterfalls and ducks and flamingos and lots of teeny birds chasing each other around and palm trees and grass. sagahar and I fell so in love with it that we wandered out and bought one of those enormous frozen tourist drinks, brought it back to the habitat area, and just kicked back and enjoyed the weather. The next time, I'm gonna stretch out on the grass and doze like a cat. It's apparently open 24 hours. I can't wait to go back after dark.

(sagahar and I will be posting our photos to Flickr eventually. I hope to get mine up before Monday.)