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[emchy]

i feel unsettled
i want to kick back and relax - instead i am chewing my fingers bloody and worrying about dirty dishes and laundry
i can't seem to get the poems back in my mind lately
it's as if i am looking for the sunny field to lie in
and keep scraping my hands raw on the concrete that i find when i go to lie down

i almost called in sick to work today
i almost caleed in sick tomorrow
but i have too much ... for that
there is a lot to do

i am watching my words run away from me
just blurry enough
that i miss them
everytime

the lady makes cookies while i angst and try not to want any
oh nutrition you are my enemy tonight