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Dec. 5th, 2005 12:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
emchyjust got a big old fashioned rush of sadness
sigh
sometimes i guess i do get homesick, even when my mother is being a bit of a jerk.
today i miss smoking. smoking out in the cold where the air and the smoke alternately warm and put icicles into the little bubbles in my lungs...
smoking on the el platform in chicago with claire and the wind whipping off of the lake, and it all just smells like marlboros, pizza and chanel #5 and i was so so happy...
i am not sure if i want to be an adult anymore
i need a vacation, and i keep having time off (weekends, long weekends, etc) but it never feels like quite enough.
yup, feel sad.
prolly need more sleep, but right now, too sad and tired to really want to examine the underpinings of my own pathetic narrative
sigh
sometimes i guess i do get homesick, even when my mother is being a bit of a jerk.
today i miss smoking. smoking out in the cold where the air and the smoke alternately warm and put icicles into the little bubbles in my lungs...
smoking on the el platform in chicago with claire and the wind whipping off of the lake, and it all just smells like marlboros, pizza and chanel #5 and i was so so happy...
i am not sure if i want to be an adult anymore
i need a vacation, and i keep having time off (weekends, long weekends, etc) but it never feels like quite enough.
yup, feel sad.
prolly need more sleep, but right now, too sad and tired to really want to examine the underpinings of my own pathetic narrative
