(no subject)
Sep. 22nd, 2005 11:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
emchyshow went off tonight with an unusual amount of emotional honesty and sincere squishiness. not nearly as much RAWK and much more heart too big for your chest sort of songs. sometimes, that's how we like it.
hit the lex for a drink after. just felt like there was finally enough room to let my hair down a little. enough to breathe and trust that breathing wouldn't result in a breakdown. and it was good. met friend and friend there. i [data embargo] only because it feels more real and less who was where with whom that way.
anyway, the ride i was offred home checked in and made sure i was ok. a little sad that that ended so early, but the mister reminded me not to crawl into other people's head about it. RIGHT. i am not psychic. good reminder.
dyke dynamics at bars crack me up. i was lost in editing some work before friend and friend got there. and people are so not open. and that's fine. i wasn't either. then later, this woman was hitting on friend, while telling me tangentially about her girlfriend, who was so hot, but chubby. she seemed fixated on the chubby to the point that i started doubting if her girlfriend really existed. odd but true. and yet, she seemed nice.
i did not put music on the jukebox. very strange for me. i did drink whiskey, and to be quite honest, not enough of it.
i feel like i need a little bit of reckless. but i am too practical for it.
hit the lex for a drink after. just felt like there was finally enough room to let my hair down a little. enough to breathe and trust that breathing wouldn't result in a breakdown. and it was good. met friend and friend there. i [data embargo] only because it feels more real and less who was where with whom that way.
anyway, the ride i was offred home checked in and made sure i was ok. a little sad that that ended so early, but the mister reminded me not to crawl into other people's head about it. RIGHT. i am not psychic. good reminder.
dyke dynamics at bars crack me up. i was lost in editing some work before friend and friend got there. and people are so not open. and that's fine. i wasn't either. then later, this woman was hitting on friend, while telling me tangentially about her girlfriend, who was so hot, but chubby. she seemed fixated on the chubby to the point that i started doubting if her girlfriend really existed. odd but true. and yet, she seemed nice.
i did not put music on the jukebox. very strange for me. i did drink whiskey, and to be quite honest, not enough of it.
i feel like i need a little bit of reckless. but i am too practical for it.
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2005-09-23 12:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-09-23 09:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-09-23 12:04 pm (UTC)And what is this data embargo business!?!?