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Jul. 11th, 2005 11:44 pmi just don't even know what to say
except that maybe seeing a movie about feeling lost and sadness and death
isn't the best thing when you have barely been avoiding falling off of a cliff
maybe sleep will help. just two weeks and it's either fine or crash and burn. whatever. i just want it to be over. let me fail or succeed, i just want to be fucking done so that i can take my sexy beast into the woods and relax and laugh and not give a shit about having to be somewhere at 9am.
and just in case the universe didn't hear:
i want to be a bartender.
i want to freelance more reviews, for pay and for free
i want to submit for more publication
i want to win a grant
i want to feature more
i want to go on tour
i want all of this and i want to make my rent and pay my bills and laugh a good deal.
is that too much to ask for?
except that maybe seeing a movie about feeling lost and sadness and death
isn't the best thing when you have barely been avoiding falling off of a cliff
maybe sleep will help. just two weeks and it's either fine or crash and burn. whatever. i just want it to be over. let me fail or succeed, i just want to be fucking done so that i can take my sexy beast into the woods and relax and laugh and not give a shit about having to be somewhere at 9am.
and just in case the universe didn't hear:
i want to be a bartender.
i want to freelance more reviews, for pay and for free
i want to submit for more publication
i want to win a grant
i want to feature more
i want to go on tour
i want all of this and i want to make my rent and pay my bills and laugh a good deal.
is that too much to ask for?
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Date: 2005-07-12 10:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-07-12 11:35 am (UTC)Seriously--I'm with
I like to listen to Ani at times like these, really loud, singing along until I'm hoarse: "Do you think I'm asking too much?!?"
It can be good therapy. The Ladybug that just flew in my open window and is not crawling along the wire frame of my atrocious filing system agrees. :)