ow body ow

so this last week - prolly from stress (as indicated by the stress hives) - every morning i wake up feeling like i have been beaten (in a bad way) in my sleep. just fucking sore as hell. friday night had lots of dancing and standing and dehydrating beverages consumed and so saturday wasn't better on the achey front. then let's factor in sitting on my couch from noon - 9pm writing copy for the freelance job - omg when i stood up i felt like my knees where attacking themselves with baseball bats. i streched and moved around and all to relieve some stiffness but damn with the ow. today was a bit better since i wasn't chained to the computer. i thought i would be - but fate and happenstance came together for me to have most of the day free. so i got some groceries, took the dog to pine lake park and stern grove for the running and ball throwing goodness. however home later the knees and back were all - WE ARE GRUMPY. i don't take the grumpy lying down, so i grabbed chesca and decided to practice for an hour - but to play while standing - a feat that merna was to heavy for me to manage for very long. see here is one thing about being a bigger gal playing the accordion. the instrument is strapped to your chest and with either boobs or belly the accordion is pushed to be further away from you. and so the pull on your back from the straps changes and your bass arm has to actually hold more of the weight. and so it can aggravate RSI / Carpal if you have it - which i do. and so before chesca there was much grumpy about standing to play. today though - it was wonderful. she is light enough that i just jammed out on her for about an hour and it was grand. and getting used to playing while not sitting was really good for the performative nature of it as well. lots of foot stomping and swaying and being melodramatic to my attentive audience of cat and dog. :)

so moving the body was more than good for both my rebelling knees and my tired stressy brain. i am hoping my knees are done rebelling as of tomorrow and hoping i can keep being more active to keep the stress lower and the knees happier. also hoping that i can avoid the dream beat down tonight.

the coming week is back to crazy. band practice, then work thing, then screening committee, then band show and then it's friday and freelancing and holy crap sat is valentines day. sigh i wish i had the freelance check in hand before the love day began so gifting could happen sooner than later. but you know - i think i needed the night off. i keep hearing that cranky in my voice that along with the stress hives are an indicator that i am making the right changes because i don't want the cranky edge anymore. i don't like it on me. it's like wearing somone else's clothes you know? i will take the loud laugh over caffeinated edge to my voice any day. its the one i was born with and my natural default. cranky can wash away with this gorgeous rain.

speaking of rain. i fly to new orleans in two weeks. *swoon*