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just trying to keep my head on straight
lost some money but gained some laughs at poker
somehow i have felt more alive in the past few days than in the entire last year
it feels pretty good
i am walking in the right direction
and
i am creating work that i not only like
but i also think is taking me in a more honest direction
a place that i may have been sooner if fear and social cultures didn't tell girls, even loud mouthed brash and craszy girls, to be quiet and people will like you
i have never been wholly quiet, but there are some walls falling away

i think i want to go into the woods more
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