love

[emchy]

I had this wonderful long conversation about love and relationshios yesterday. it's a thread that runs through me a lot - but the way it's coming up is changing. i am enjoying the exploration of the different facets of love - of relationships. i tend to have a lot of love for people. friends, artists, and of course my romantic partner. but i have been watching people walk in the world more... thinking of how we choose who to come together with. who we choose to be sacred for us. to be family. to be safe.

today i was driving through the castro and saw two men give each other a huge loving hug. they pulld apart and looked at each other with such tenderness. it was obvious that they were not lovers. and i thought of the couples i know - and how many of them aren't even that warm with each other.
last night i got a call from a friend that made me smile so hard. there was so much love in it. we talk a lot. but i know that if they were dating someone, and the new love interest wanted to talk on the phone as much as friend and i do it would be seen as a red flag - clingy, too needy something. isn't that a funny thing. when in the mainstream depictions of love that we have it is supposed to supercede all other relationships. and yet here are two cases (and there are others) where the love in a friendship is so much more real. or complete. something... i have been forming new and deepening older friendships lately. and really realizing how every relationship i have feeds me differently. and it finally feels good. i don't rely on the lady for ALL OF MY NEEDS. and without that pressure i just get to enjoy her more.

a lot of thoughts for a monday morning and no bfast yet. tangent - the squishy sunset poem went over well last night at k'v. always odd to read a poem that holds a moment with someone else and they're in the room. they liked it. yay! somehow having to out talk the loud drunks made me read better i think. gotta love adversity.

fightingwords , final_girl  if you wanna meet in the mission for bfast call me. i am starving. probably will hit a food place by 11 if you're interested. xo