there's no sun up in the sky

[emchy]

I am not sure when i went from good mood leftover hot tub fuzzy to very very sad

again with the angst and the wanderlust and the need the screaming out of bleeding out of need to be somewhere quiet where trees are big, huge, just big pine trees and maples and oaks who offer shade and solace

my grandmother sent no card - and so i am left with maudlin thoughts, is she too ill to have remembered?

autumn is the time of homesickness

my mother sent me a necklace with a tree on it, it made me smile and think of hime - a new talisman that felt like family...now i wonder if it is a boulder of sadness around my neck and I try to get through and end up feeling hollow until my thoughts become too jumbled from bouncing around inside of my shell

but at least Ken from my day job liked my poems - they have inspired him to go on a long night drive to nowhere with his thoughts for company - that's pretty cool

Comments

[postmaudlin.livejournal.com]

i'm sure it doesn't make you feel any better to know that i'm baby-crash-and-burn right alongside.

wishing you a soft and brief postpartum, monkey girl.

[susannochka.livejournal.com]

sending you both BIG smooches.
can we play poker soon? wouldn't that help?

[cindymonkey.livejournal.com]

ah we all derserve big hugs and sweet things to make they day a happier time

thanks to both of you for lifting the gloom

I am determined to drink much wine tonight
I figure that'll help

wish me luck

[postmaudlin.livejournal.com]

i am ridiculously booked up.

i could do it monday night, that's about it -- could you guys do monday?

[postmaudlin.livejournal.com]

i do.

but i'll warn you that tons of beer made it worse for me, both last night and today. hope your results differ...

[susannochka.livejournal.com]

ah... Monday might be okay, but I think I've still got Rebecca in town... unless she wants to play...
or maybe next week?

[cindymonkey.livejournal.com]

i can do monday - but later - sadly - might be better