love letter to a lost friend

[emchy]

i was looking and finally found more, almost accidentally, about an old friend, an ex friend online. damn i miss her. but some ties don't ever get mended, no matter how the hearts are feeling. anyway, looking and seeing trends, how close and yet not our circles and aesthetics are. she is shiny latex fetish for haute couture fashion. i am rowdy leather for fun with tattoos. yes, we both have tattoos and piercings. she is more Goth, where as i tend towards accidental goth. she is bisexual sex positive, i am queer sex positive. we have worked for the same places and even when we were roommates, we were so close and yet our circles barely intersected. it's still that way.

just...
interesting.

sometimes i wish i could turn time around.
i wish i hadn't been so scared and young and not knowing how to take care of myself except to cut her off. funny thing, when you cut someone off, sometimes, you can't have them back.