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Jul. 10th, 2006
so seriously now
Jul. 10th, 2006 03:27 pmif you have a video cell phone - you should totally enter this contest by midnight
you can upload as many films as you want
and the top ten all win $1000 (really - $1000)
just for showing off your pals
doin the stuff they do
the main winner gets $5000
really people
it's simple
it's basic
do some silly stunt and send it in already
xo
the person who wants HER friends to win all of the $$$$ since she can't enter the damn contest herself
meme part one
Jul. 10th, 2006 05:14 pmanswering the first two questions. questioners not revealed. funny that both questions end up being about similar things. meme is still open for more questions. comments here are NOT screened though for that you must return to http://cindymonkey.livejournal.com/522450.html
Q. what would it take for you to believe in your own art?
A. some real validation. from a variety of sources. i sense that there will always be doubty days, even if i was the poet laureate of the whole universe. but for the moment, i am not entirely sure. being told i am doing well. that i am on the right track. that it isn't too late. having time to treat my art like it matters. knowing how to make that time. sometimes it sinks in. and sometimes... i just feel like a fraud. do i need an MFA? a book deal? legions of fans? i just don't know.
Q. if 15 year old cindy met now cindy, what would she think?
A. she would be both proud and frustrated. amazed and happy that she made it out of michigan. a bit surprised by the whole maybe having kids someday part. happy and proud that she is working in film. sad and confused at her distress at work. shocked and angry that she hasn't lived in europe yet. shocked and really angry that she isn't published in more places yet. and even angrier at her own ability to settle. 15 year old cindy would want a lot more, and be really impatient with 31 year old cindy about getting more of that more.
Q. what would it take for you to believe in your own art?
A. some real validation. from a variety of sources. i sense that there will always be doubty days, even if i was the poet laureate of the whole universe. but for the moment, i am not entirely sure. being told i am doing well. that i am on the right track. that it isn't too late. having time to treat my art like it matters. knowing how to make that time. sometimes it sinks in. and sometimes... i just feel like a fraud. do i need an MFA? a book deal? legions of fans? i just don't know.
Q. if 15 year old cindy met now cindy, what would she think?
A. she would be both proud and frustrated. amazed and happy that she made it out of michigan. a bit surprised by the whole maybe having kids someday part. happy and proud that she is working in film. sad and confused at her distress at work. shocked and angry that she hasn't lived in europe yet. shocked and really angry that she isn't published in more places yet. and even angrier at her own ability to settle. 15 year old cindy would want a lot more, and be really impatient with 31 year old cindy about getting more of that more.