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Feb. 25th, 2006 03:14 ami am afraid i have a crush on the whole world
this is the problem with lj at 3am
this is the problem with lj at 3am
Feb. 25th, 2006
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Feb. 25th, 2006 03:03 pmits so sad
the hangover - esque low energy has hit. i waited too long to eat is the problem. that and the sunshine LIES!!! it's friggin COLD out there. went out without tights or jacket and now am sitting by the heater to get the chill out of my bones. so instead of oakland redwoods i am getting pampered - yay! with diet coke and episodes of the l word. i am such a cliche. i love it. new outfit too - which is fun. yes - i do get excited about an outfit to wear on the couch while watching movies. it's just me. can't help it. later am going to whole paycheck for meat and rainbow for vegatables and vitamins. wow. such an exciting and glamorous life. but it's just what i need today.
little bit worried that i am turning my need of new brakes for the car into a very expensive problem. and maybe a dangerous one too. but the $$ and the time are not happening to take it in. i know the sounds though - have been through it before - they are bad. hopefully not brake drum bad like the time in seattle where something major broke while i was driving and i had to push the car into midas across 4 lanes of traffic by myself and then direct deposit advance almost my entire paycheck to get the car driveable again when we needed to drive back to sf in just a few hours and i had no money for food and there was no public transit where i was so i just drank the free midas coffee and freaked out about the fact that i had not enough cash to maybe get back to sf and fuck fuck fuck.
yea - i don't think it's that bad yet, and at least i am in my hometown, but still it's getting close to that bad. i wish i knew how to change the brakes myself. but since actual dying could happen if i did it wrong and i don't have a garage or even a driveway - i have to let the professionals do it.
i looked back at some of last nights posts. funniest thing - i fixed a lot of the typos before i posted them. meaning what is there now... has been corrected - ie - in the typo rich land of the drunked posts there used to be even more typos. what is left are the ones i didn't catch. that. is. insane. some of the sentences don't even makes sense for gawds sake.
i have for so long been wanting to go sit on the cedar river and drink wine until 4am with someone. a friend - not a romantic partner - and just talk and laugh and talk. and the river is still anchored in michigan, but last night, i got a taste of that sort of connection again. i missed it. it was really really nice. it felt really good. is it just coincidence that my old high school friend that i used to always connect like that with just found me on myspace this week? somehow i don't think it is.
the hangover - esque low energy has hit. i waited too long to eat is the problem. that and the sunshine LIES!!! it's friggin COLD out there. went out without tights or jacket and now am sitting by the heater to get the chill out of my bones. so instead of oakland redwoods i am getting pampered - yay! with diet coke and episodes of the l word. i am such a cliche. i love it. new outfit too - which is fun. yes - i do get excited about an outfit to wear on the couch while watching movies. it's just me. can't help it. later am going to whole paycheck for meat and rainbow for vegatables and vitamins. wow. such an exciting and glamorous life. but it's just what i need today.
little bit worried that i am turning my need of new brakes for the car into a very expensive problem. and maybe a dangerous one too. but the $$ and the time are not happening to take it in. i know the sounds though - have been through it before - they are bad. hopefully not brake drum bad like the time in seattle where something major broke while i was driving and i had to push the car into midas across 4 lanes of traffic by myself and then direct deposit advance almost my entire paycheck to get the car driveable again when we needed to drive back to sf in just a few hours and i had no money for food and there was no public transit where i was so i just drank the free midas coffee and freaked out about the fact that i had not enough cash to maybe get back to sf and fuck fuck fuck.
yea - i don't think it's that bad yet, and at least i am in my hometown, but still it's getting close to that bad. i wish i knew how to change the brakes myself. but since actual dying could happen if i did it wrong and i don't have a garage or even a driveway - i have to let the professionals do it.
i looked back at some of last nights posts. funniest thing - i fixed a lot of the typos before i posted them. meaning what is there now... has been corrected - ie - in the typo rich land of the drunked posts there used to be even more typos. what is left are the ones i didn't catch. that. is. insane. some of the sentences don't even makes sense for gawds sake.
i have for so long been wanting to go sit on the cedar river and drink wine until 4am with someone. a friend - not a romantic partner - and just talk and laugh and talk. and the river is still anchored in michigan, but last night, i got a taste of that sort of connection again. i missed it. it was really really nice. it felt really good. is it just coincidence that my old high school friend that i used to always connect like that with just found me on myspace this week? somehow i don't think it is.