alright world - here we go

i take it as a good sign that for the last few days, since being home, i start my work day nearly giddy
excited about the possibilities, about who i might see, what i might learn, what conversations might happen...

last night nearly imploded with my mood, and i left all my medication in michigan so i was getting very emotional rollercoastery, but it all ended up working out - though i missed the hot tub goodbye chill out with kevin, many tears on that, i guess i will have to go to NYC soon and make it up to both of us

i love change. i love watching other people move forward. i hope that i am moving forward as much as it feels like. i think i still have too many gaps in my knowledge around poetry, writing, writers, outlets etc. The lady was looking around online at lodestar last night, and then linked over to the lambda awards, and was all, i met her, i know him, oh i wonder how xxx is doing. it's funny. she left the publishing world but still knows so much, and on the flip side, it's mostly for the fiction and so in poetry i still flail about looking for what i should be doing next.

it's hard with the big XMAS being in two days - i want to play but i feel the responsibility and the fun in getting things done...

hmmmmm i think today is when to figure out exactly what is left to get done