tuesday morning prayer

[emchy]

the update is that i am tired. i am searching for something that i cannot find but am trusting that it will find me. i am hoping for salvation in coffee grounds and bottles of water. i am looking for messages in the sounds of keyboard tapping. i am waiting to be serenaded by my fate from the diry sidewalk below my office window. i am praying that a grant on a big noble horse will carry me away from all of this. i am wishing, just a little, to not lose my hope.