I'm with final_girl here... don't deal with the future when you get home. Deal with the present. Deal with right now. The future's gonna happen all by itself. If you can, as much as possible, bring yourself back into the fold of love that's your home... keep breathing. Walk the puppy. Watch ridiculous tv. Keep breathing...

You are beautiful in yourself, and deserve all the good things. *hug* *hug* *hug*

(we are all beautiful in ourselves and deserve all the good things... I have to try and remind myself that as well. :P)